Saturday, December 31, 2011

Ring out the old, ring in the new!

The sun sets on the old year. I cannot believe that the new year will be here in 5 hours. I look back on this crazy year and realize that I am one year older and in some ways, wiser. It was full of sad endings, new beginnings, and everything in between. I am incredibly grateful and can say that I have no regrets. That's something, right?

Things have been insane recently. I have felt far from myself, far from God at times, far from where and who I want to be. But today I'm on the up and up, as Relient K would say. I have a good feeling about this next year! And I hope you all can say the same. Hopefully in the coming weeks I'll be able to post more about my Christmas with the fam. Happy new year! :)

Friday, December 16, 2011


So it looks like the photo challenge isn't progressing the way I thought it just doesn't make me excited like the first one did. So I'm going to take a break and see how things go in a couple weeks. But I'll still post here and there :)

Sunday, December 11, 2011

running on empty.

"O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water."
Psalm 63:1

Man. This verse has been going through my head over and over again this week. I felt like I needed to re-fuel, so I kept looking for people to hang out with. But that is not what I really needed. I think sometimes I'm afraid to be alone and do nothing. Not that I don't like being alone, but at this point in my life it's often a time where my thoughts betray me and I end up working myself into a mess. I'm learning to seek God consistently in these times.

Right now, work embodies everything that I haven't done yet in my life. And on top of that, I've turned it into a barrier. Honestly, I could quit right now. But then my mind follows that train of thought until it crashes into the mountain of reality; "You look better if you're employed when you apply for jobs. You're making money. What else would you do? You have nothing else to do..." And so on. But then there is a tiny voice that creeps in saying, "who cares?" I wish it was easier to discern God's voice from my own. Maybe I should take mine off of loudspeaker.

If it weren't for the people I work with, I don't know what I would do. I am so thankful for the people in my life. And it really isn't a bad job at all, I'm just...tired. But the kind of tired that creates a restless soul.

At least tomorrow starts a new photo challenge! Get excited.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011


"There are days when solitude is a heady wine that intoxicates you with freedom, others when it is a bitter tonic, and still others when it is a poison that makes you beat your head against the wall."

-Sidonie Gabrielle Colette

Sunday, December 4, 2011

sounds and silence.

I love these blue snowflakes that light our porch.

I have not really been present lately. So many things I'm unsure about. I'm getting sick of the chase. Will hopefully start another photo challenge soon, if I ever have time. Hope you all are well! The end.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

A Day in Denver.

Yesterday I was invited to go gallivanting around Denver with my friend Mike. We took the bus down and I forgot how much I enjoy bus rides. After grabbing some coffee, we found some sweet painted walls, sculptures, and architecture. And afterwards, we started the winter beer tour at Old C's and grabbed a truffle or two at the Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory. Haha. All in all a fun and successful trip. I'm liking Denver the more I hang out there.