Monday, July 8, 2013


In the past few months I have been experiencing an identity crisis. Number 282, the be exact. Welcome to my twenties. So when I was flipping through my journal this evening and happened upon the below entry, a smile slowly crept over my face as I read timely words from my past self. It was a lovely reminder of pieces of who I am:

"I had a tiny reality moment where I realized that I don't have to be anything more or anything less than I am now. I am who I am, and I stand by that. I'm the girl who will run spelling errors into joke words, who will make a song anywhere, be it on the swing set or listening to the sounds of dial-up Internet. I can laugh at most everything (including myself), come up with witty sarcastic banter, and start a conversation with someone new if I wanted to. I try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt. The keyword is "try"...nobody's perfect, especially me. I love to affirm people. I love inspiring people and witnessing their joy, curiosity and excitement in discovery. I love feeling inspired from other people. I love to sing, anywhere and everywhere. If I'm singing around you, I'm a.) happy and b.) comfortable. I love chocolate and coffee, and I absolutely adore my nieces and nephews. I love my family so much that my heart hurts, both with extreme love and extreme fear that I can't protect them always. That is when I need to trust God, moment by moment. He is BIG! And His love for them is even far greater than mine...I need to remind myself of that. I'm scared of dreaming, because I'm scared of failure, and picking wrong, and so many other things. I'm not good at taking high-risk chances. I hope to get better at this :) I am me, and that's pretty damn wonderful."

Ah...hello, my old heart :) just thought I'd share that entry here. I love journaling. Anais Nin once said, "we write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospection." It is so true. Maybe you can relate to some of my thoughts. Perhaps not. Either way, thanks for sharing in them!